._.

I'm bored. ._. Just bored! Argh! And I'm ill -.- In summer! That's unfair. I've got a cold in summer. Life's a bitch. And I'm stupid. Yes, I am! I get very good grades at school, but although I'm stupid. It's not that easy to be me. Life's a bitch sometimes. And sometimes I'm really tired of being who I am. But I won't change for anyone. I do what I want. Not what the one's around me want. I am like I want to be. Not like the one's around want me to be. I wear neon green earrings. I wear black nail polish. I wear much black eyeliner. I wear many bracelets. I wear a Green Day fan shirt. I carry a Green Day bag. I put Green Day pictures and Green Day lyrics on my walls and I put quotes of Billie Joe, Mike and Tré on my door. I sit on a windowsill, play the guitar and sing Green Day songs. I lay on my bed and draw Green Day cartoons. I sit on my desk and make Green Day drawings. I won't change. I won't stop doing those things. I am I. Forever. I know that my parents and many of my friends hope that this Green Day-Punk-Stuff will be only a phase. They mostly don't take me seriously. That makes me down ._. Some say "do something that they take you seriously!", but what can I do? I just don't know. Maybe just being myself? Maybe change much? Cut my hair and color it? Just get bad at school? Don't think about rules anymore? Break 'em all? I am stupid. I am jaded. I really need somebody to talk to. Somebody who listen to me! Or I'll get lost in all this questions. 

Well, everytime I stick in questions, I free myself with music and drawing. And that's what I'll do now. I'll listen to music and draw. Maybe a pic of Billie Joe. Or Mike. Or Tré. Or all together. I don't know. I'll see.