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I'm bored. ._. Just bored! Argh! And I'm ill -.- In summer! That's unfair. I've got a cold in summer. Life's a bitch. And I'm stupid. Yes, I am! I get very good grades at school, but although I'm stupid. It's not that easy to be me. Life's a bitch sometimes. And sometimes I'm really tired of being who I am. But I won't change for anyone. I do what I want. Not what the one's around me want. I am like I want to be. Not like the one's around want me to be. I wear neon green earrings. I wear black nail polish. I wear much black eyeliner. I wear many bracelets. I wear a Green Day fan shirt. I carry a Green Day bag. I put Green Day pictures and Green Day lyrics on my walls and I put quotes of Billie Joe, Mike and Tré on my door. I sit on a windowsill, play the guitar and sing Green Day songs. I lay on my bed and draw Green Day cartoons. I sit on my desk and make Green Day drawings. I won't change. I won't stop doing those things. I am I. Forever. I know that my parents and many of my friends hope that this Green Day-Punk-Stuff will be only a phase. They mostly don't take me seriously. That makes me down ._. Some say "do something that they take you seriously!", but what can I do? I just don't know. Maybe just being myself? Maybe change much? Cut my hair and color it? Just get bad at school? Don't think about rules anymore? Break 'em all? I am stupid. I am jaded. I really need somebody to talk to. Somebody who listen to me! Or I'll get lost in all this questions. 

Well, everytime I stick in questions, I free myself with music and drawing. And that's what I'll do now. I'll listen to music and draw. Maybe a pic of Billie Joe. Or Mike. Or Tré. Or all together. I don't know. I'll see. 

I'm glad I've got some very good friends. I know that I can be very annoying, but some of them understand me. For example one of them loves a musical actor and singer just like I love Green Day. She understands me ♥ 
But not everyone's so great like them. My family's just... Sometimes it seems as if they just don't want to understand me!!! 
That's all for today. See you! ♥

okay, I have to correct myself. Not all tickets are sold out. But now, my parents said: "No, you can't go. You're too young." That's not fair!! Just not fair :( I'd really love to go there!! I'd love to meet some friends I found on the internet. They can go. Life's just not fair.
Bye you ;*

I don't know what I've done. Everyone's against me. My friends make me down. My parents make me down. My brother makes me down. I don't know what I could do to kill my time. I just feel so lonely. 

-.-'

Oh God, I'm so angry about my parents >.< You know, there are three Green Day concerts in Germany this year.. But all far away. I thought it would be too far away and didn't tell anything to my parents. Today, (I don't know why) we talked about concerts and stuff like that and I said I'd really like to go to a Green Day concert. Then my mom said that if there would be one in Germany, I could go. But now, all tickets are sold out!!! >.< That's unfair :( It's my biggest dream. And I wish it will come true once. 
Today at school was "funny" too. Some guys of my class wrote "Green Day died yesterday" at the board. A few minutes later, someone wrote "I hope so" under it. I mean.. That's too much. You can't wish somebody the death if you don't know him! O.o
And now, I feel a bit lonely again.  
Nobody likes you, everyone left you. They're all out without you, having fun. 
So true.

Bye you! ♥

Heey !

Hey you! This is my first blog in english.. And it's my first blog only about my very, very, very favorite band. Green Day! 
I will tell you something about what it's like to be a Green Day fan, when all your friends and your family hate it. 
You know, sometimes I really wish to have someone who talks with me about Green Day. For example, I'd really like to tell someone my opinion about the musical American Idiot. Or something like that. 
Ok, enough bad things xP Green Day changed my life. And now its better ;D I fall asleep while listening to Green Day, I wake up while listening to Green Day, I brush my teeth while listening to Green Day (yes I do this.), I go to school while listening to Green Day, I do my homework while listening to Green Day and I'm writing this while listening to Green Day. In short: I do nearly everything while listening to Green Day. And it helps me a lot. ;)
Green Day inspired me to so many things. To play the guitar, for example. Or to draw. Or to write stories. Or, or, or... I could write a veeeeery long list xP But the most important points are playing the guitar, drawing and writing stories. 

Here is, for example, one of my last drawings. It's Rebecca Naomi Jones as Whatsername in the musical ;) 

I think it's good xP 
Before Green Day, I wasn't able to draw like this. I mean, I liked drawing, but it looked t.e.r.r.i.b.l.e. xD After a while being a fan, I tried to draw them. It looked..... special.... xD So I practised, practised, practised and practised and now it works xP

Ok, that's it for today.. Bye! ♥